Self reflection

I have to admit. It is facinating reading other people's profiles, especially the blogs. People are so willing to share some of their deepest thoughts and feelings. I admire it greatly. After reading the blogs from some of my friends, I looked at my profile and it seemed very guarded, if not shallow. So I made some adjustments, but it also made me think.

Describing myself is very intimidating, sometimes even scary. This is what some people will use as a first impression of me. How do I take everything that makes me who I am and put it into words? How much do I write? If I say that, will people think I am shallow, or just plain psycho? All these questions, and more, run through my mind as I read my profile.

I know that if someone else were to write my profile it would read completely different and would vary from person to person. Each person I know has their own descriptions of me, some glowing, some not so much. So I guess, to get the most accurate description of me, you would need to ask those around me. Kind words from them would not seem shallow or conceited and those not so kind would not seem like self-loathing.

I guess the reality is, I would LOVE to just post all of the attributes others say they love about me. To do so would be dishonest. I am human and I do say and do things not listed under the category "redeeming qualities".

Thank you to all who have seen some of my not so attractive traits and would still use those redeeming qualities to describe me.