Wednesday, September 5, 2007

I think I can, I think I can....random thoughts

Have you ever had a day that you started by saying "I think I can (insert whatever here)"? Mine is most frequently I think I can...get out of bed. Most of the time it works. Then I am able to do whatever needs to be done and somehow getting out of bed didn't seem that bad, or was the easy part of the day.

I have started saying "I think I can" more often and about more things than just getting out of bed. It has really changed my mindset on several things. Now I am not saying I have all good days, not that by any means. It has helped to lower my stress level and also get through some really emotional issues. I have been able to help someone else who needed it and forget about my miserable worries (that too easily consume me). I have been able to smile, laugh and love more.

Speaking of love, can I just say that I love my family? I am so blessed to have such a supportive family. If I have an issue, I can take it to them and work it out somehow. There might be tears, and there is defintely emotions, but we work it out in the best way we know how. Sometimes this is honestly let it drop and give it time and other times we step in for someone else who is either too afraid or not ready to speak their mind right at that moment (a rare occasion, I promise).

So what do you do when someone you truly care about is having a difficult time and nothing you say or do can really change anything? Is this where "I think I can" comes in? I think I can be there for that person, no matter what happens. I think I can love that person with everything I've got. I think I can show that person life is good and worth plugging on. What happens if I need someone while I am there for them? Do I just fall apart trying to keep them together or do I drop them to keep myself together?

This is one of my weak strengths. You know, one of those qualities that makes a difference for other people but that is focused on so much that something else suffers. You see, I am loyal to a fault. It really takes something earth-shattering for me to consider someone once a friend otherwise. When one of my friends is in trouble or needs me, I am there, sometimes even when I need one myself.

So, I think I can...be my own friend. It makes sense. If I take care of my friends, and I am my own friend, I will take care of myself.